Monday, March 28, 2005

spyware?

What is this spyware thing? It keeps popping all over my com. Ah, need my sis to clean it out. I'm not d administrator anyway.

T.O.W is officially a cocoon/pupa now. He looks dead. Stinky is in the process of becoming a cocoon. Tiny is the only one left now.

I found another kitten. But she disappeared.

Bloody spyware shit.

I'm sorry Nis n everybody that I've pissed off lately. Really sorry.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
6:09:00 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2005

head spinning

Mayb cos sleep is finally asking for It's fair share. Been sleeping late, waking up early. But gotta act cheery n lively so my dad won't go nuts.

Found a kitten. I know its mother. I left it so the mother could take care of it.

I don't know why but I like to piss off the ppl who irritates me. For no reason I felt irritated. N i just love to poke n prod n make them retaliate.

Must have gotten that growing up with my siblings. It's all war of words. But when it gets physical, that's alot of fun. Especially with war scars, long red scratches around my neck. Keep long nails.

Lesson of the day: Don't let Father hold the computer mouse. It's a horrible scene.
Don't.........wanna.......go........Jarkata.....or......Padang.......

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:46:00 PM

my caterpillars

CaterpillarS. I have 4 now. T.O.W, Tiny,Stinky & Spiky. But we had to let Spiky go cos he was posionous. Black n yellow. N caterpillars have this defence mechanism where when u poke them, a pair of red feelers thing comes out from their heads n this awful stinking smell will be released. So predators drop them in disgust I suppose. This particular Caterpillar, Stinky, he likes to do that alot.

Oh n I'm drenched now cos I had to walk around in the rain looking for T.O.W. Found him n I think he's turning into a cocoon. He's on this twig n not moving n has a white silky thread coming out from him. Ooohh I can't wait! This is so cool! But he looks pissed that I kept shaking his branch. Heh.

N Pippin is walking all over my keyboard. Silly girl.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
5:17:00 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

just a few quick things

I know! It's my 3rd entry for today! I'll try to keep it short. But hey, my blog, my problem ah if I wana blog 10 times a day! But I feel like I'm running out of time anyways. Okay here goes. Hem hem.

I know I don't talk about my brother much cos, well, he's never there is he. BUT! he was home just now n Tina (my lil sis) just can't help taking a poke at him n Ka-Ching! Out came $30! $15 for her n $15 for me. It's rare for him to give us money. Seems like he had a good month! Then he gave us another $5 each so I now have $20! WHOO! N recently Iza gave me $10! Hahaha...But I never use the money. Sayang lah. Bukannye aku kerja so I just keep for emergency or hide them away so I'll forget abt it till the TIME comes. Thanks Bai!!!! Oh "Bai" means big brother. But I think it's spelt Bhai. Dunolah.

And, my 2 cats? Pippin n Merry? Why did I ever assumed Pippin was a boy? Now we all have difficulty relating to her as a girl! N it's MERRY! Not Mary. He is a guy u noe. N guess wad? Merry, he is, um, ah....mating with his lil sis Pippin. On top of my washing machine. Yup. *shoots myself* Now Tina's calling Merry a rapist. *shivers* My eldest sis wants to sterilise Merry so I hope she does it soon before he uh, mates with any more cats. It's harder for a female cat. Lagi mahal. N I dunno if she's (ugh,Pippin) pregnant already. Sweet screwed cats/kittens.

I suck man. But it's hard when they're kittens to identify their gender. But now I know. Whoopee. Bleargh.

N I made another assumption that my caterpillar is a male! How the hell would I know that? N Tina's calling him "The One Worm." Sheesh. Do caterpillars sleep at night? Or do dey continue eating till they burst out a cocoon to sleep in? The One Worm is lying still in his box, full of leaves that me n my sisters went around plucking. Mostly frm my mum's potted plants. Juicy.T.O.W is probably munchin on a leaf, thinking.

Okay I have another blog to go to so maybe I shouldn't flood this one. Yup. Will do.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:30:00 PM

identity crisis

It's amazing how I go from one identity crisis to another in a matter of days! Well, the thing is I don't want to go Temasek Poly. I don't know why. Or maybe I just don't want to say it. Rao, care to put it into words for me?

Rao said this recently, "Both courses are good.It's like having a BMW but wanting a mercedes instead."

You took the thoughts right out of my head MML. What I have to figure out is, whether I'm more suitable with my BMW or a Mercedes. Will I be happier in Biotech or H&M? But too late for that now, appeals are closed!

Anyway, I was thinking, maybe I should get n MP3 player n walk around with it, blasting soothing music (george bensen?) into my ears to calm my nerves on first day of POLY LIFE. N I can also ignore all the people that I dunt want to talk to.

Problem. I don't have money for an MP3. But I do have money, however, for the earphones. So I'll have earphones, connected to nothing, blasting nothing, firmly lodged in my ears so as to give that impression of an MP3-owner. N I can still ignore ppl by pretending I can't hear them.

I used to do that. Have my sis's Walkman in front of me, playing nothing n when people want to chit-chat with me, they'll be like, "Mada! Mada! Bla bla bla bla chatter chatter chit chit," n I can hear perfectly well wad they're saying n I get to choose whether to respond or carefully avert my eyes from their direction n be totally immersed in my nails. *grins*

*looking for earphones*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
6:41:00 PM

i'm a beautiful butterfly!

Not really, I got that line from the movie "Bug's Life". N my family now own a caterpillar! My mum found him on one of her plants n I wanted to keep him n watch him turn into a beautiful butterfly. I hope. I hope he doesn't turn into a moth or sumthing. N lets just pray he won't die. He's eating well so no worries. Hehe.

I'm watching "Willow" now. It's kindda like LOTR. Eh, something's wrong with the computer. How do I use this norton antivirus thing ah? Eh, dah start. Bye.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:41:00 PM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

our TAPing game

Hey Sya! Did you realize that today was the 1-year anniversary of our TAPing game? We started it at last year's Sports Day kan? Hahahahaha! We should've have had a big TAP fiesta n sit all Changi Airport all day today n TAP each other to death. May the best TAPper win!

The game is, when you see an aeroplane or a fighter jet, you must go TAP! n tap your fren. But usually we dunt just tap. We smack n beat each other up. N Rao has this other game where we TAP each other whenever we see a red vehicle dat is not a bus. This red vehicle tapping game is worse cos there's like never a moments peace cos everyone's eyes are glued to the road n carparks.

East Coast Park n Pasir Ris Park are good places to play the TAPing game. Especially at night when all u can see is tiny flashes of red light coming from the big black sky...Now I guess we won't see much of each other anymore and the TAPing game will just fade away. I hope I won't forget so when u guys tak perasan...................



TAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
6:29:00 PM

deeply personal

This thoughts just came to me as I was settling down at 2 am to get sum shut eye. I gotta type it now before I forget cos these thoughts,they come to me in the middle of the night when everything's quiet n I get time to reflect.

I don't think I am what everyone says I am. No I'm not like my eldest sis. Hell, I dunt think I look like her either. I'm not as independent and all so smart.

No, I'm not the best out of my 5 siblings. Why do everyone think dat? I'm such a good Muslim daughter ain't I. N it tears me up everytime I don't live up to that image. Maybe I used to be good, and pray when I had to when I was 11 cos I seriously believed Hari Qiamat was round the corner.

But shit man, I got caught up in my chase for worldly things. I think I'm just as corrupted (in the mind that is) as other teenagers. I don't pray n I dunt get that unsettling feeling anymore. That feeling I used to get when I was kid. I wud toss n turn worrying cos I missed Isyak or sumthing. Damnit I'm not like that anymore kay. I'm not d good little girl my mum n dad depend on.My dad trusts me so much. I won't ever betray his trust. I hope.

The Devil got to me I guess. I'm rude now(my dad nevers scolds me even though, I feel, I've been awfully rude to him. Anak derhaka.), n lazier with my prayers. N i dunt even feel guilt cos hey! My fav TV show's on Tv n I forget all about feeling guilty. Stone me to death so I'll escape hell please.

I also used to not want to sleep cos I was so afraid I won't wake up the next day. I was so aware of my mortality. But like my cousin said, this feeling comes rarely and u often brush it off. Do I wanna change? It's so hard isn't it. This life now, it's easy and you don't want to let go of your world.

But my dad said that for Muslims, this world is full of pain and suffering n hardship cos this world is just a test for us, a temporary place until we get Over There. Where we will be trulu happy. N for the Kafirs, things come so easily for them. Money, status, all the worldly riches. Cos they don't noe they hold on to this world so tightly when it doesn't mean a thing.







How far is heaven?

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
2:07:00 AM

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

how we used to be

to all milahtants,

it has come to my attention that recently, a few wannabe milahtants have been seen prowling near MilahGrounds, hoping to sniff out Milahsecrets and trying to steal Milahstrategies. So, fellow milahtants, do beware of these furry apparitions. in addition, refrain from mingling with these characters as this would, alarmingly enough, violate the Milah Contract agreement regulations.

fellow milahtants,

i apologise if all this is so crappy that you who are reading are probably shaking convulsively in horror and reaching out for a roti Milah to calm yourself. ok, i should stop. really stop.

really, i'm just crapping out of nervousness, for fear that herr majesty MamaLemon might just pull a Milah tantrum on me if i don't post.
that said, i shall solemnly make my leave.
yours fearfully,
chickadees


Ps: Geng Milah is kind of an inside joke isn't it? Tiada babi dan tiada lemak babi? N Otah2 pon ada. U gota be there to understand.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:55:00 PM

Danger. Vulgar post up ahead.

I'm so farking pissed! I bet if Iza was here, we both cud just KILL the farking BITCH! I'm the one who will always get the freaking blame n kena nag sampai I'm at the brink of death n the BITCH can just go out n be a derhaka anak. Rumah berserak AKU yang kena marah, bukan dier!

I rather you NOT be at home cos noone cares for you n I am bloody bored of trying to be on the fence and not complain about you n be nice to you when you have farking shown that you don't bloody care for anyone or the house or Mak. BITCH. FUCK YOU.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:18:00 PM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

this feeling inside

I have gone from sleepy to wide-awake to ultimate horror to panic to CHAOS to being in doubt n agony. It's of course about my JAE posting. Right now, a new feeling has taken over. I feel calm n collected n am ready to take whatever the fates has thrown at me. Yes, Ive accepted the decision.

I dun think I'll be appealing for Biotech. Cos, there's A Maths! They gona teach 1 year of A Maths in one semester! E Maths makes me bawl like a baby, apatahlagi A Maths. I dun feel anything anymore. Just go with the flow. Bye2 vet dreams.

Maybe I shud just join the army n drive cool trucks n scorn at Poly ppl. Yeah. Or form a rock band n be the BEES KNEES.

Argh. Temasek Poly. Yucks. I just dun like it. Oh, but I like the mee goreng there. Heheh. Aw, yucks. Temasek Poly. NOOOOOOoooooOOO!!!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
4:03:00 PM

Our posting's HERE

N we are all unhappy. Imran says that EVERYONE is going TP except him n Sya. N Bah i guess. She's goin La Salle. Ah, the reason I hate TP. We all seeing d same ugly faces again and again. Grrr...

Okay I need to sort out my thoughts. I dun care about the school anymore cos we are destined to cramp together the East side people. But now,Ive got my 1st choice course. I dun think I want it anymore. Ive got Hospitality n Toursim management. But I think I want to get into Biotech TP. WHY?

Coz Ive wanted to be a vet since i was 9!!! N with Biotech at TP, i cud take Vet Science in year 2 n be a VET's assistant with just a diploma! It's wad Ive always dreamed of. Why am I hesitating? YA ALLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets be serious here. How d hell am I suppose to the a job when I get out of Biotech cos i KNOW that if i cant be a VET's tech, I dun wana be werkin in a lab. I'll die. But with this Hospitality thing, Ive gotta touch wine n learn how to make cocktails issit? Damnit. Jadi vet pon must touch dogs but hello?? I'll be wearing gloves. Allah Allah Allah. Ive no idea of wad to think. Wow. My first time feeling this way.


It concerns my future damn you. (cursing aint helping you Mada) Use my brain or follow my heart? I rather touch dogs den alcohol. No one's here to help me. Let me rant. Rant.Rant. Rant. I feel better already. I'llc come back with the vote soon.


BIOTECH or HOSPITALITY?

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:34:00 AM

Monday, March 21, 2005

I am Lord of the Nazguls

I am sore and hurt. I am so close to being pissed. I am terribly annoyed. I am so excited.

No I did not fall off a bike to make me so sore. I did fall off once, with Aisha. But I wasn't bruised then. Instead, just now, I fell off my chair n landed on my elbow n knees. Ouch.

I am so terribly annoyed cos I want to watch Desprate Housewives n my dad will rather eat his toes den let me watch that. He wouldn't even let me watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S last time. Now he's watching his black n white hindustan movies. Irritating. N my mum conquered the other TV set n when i asked her politely if i could change the channel, she gave me the LOOK (u noe wad look sisters) n jeling. HMPH. Fas, give me ur downloaded episodes!!

I am still Lord Nazgul Mada. Fly before my you weaklings!

I am so excited cos I figured out Photobucket. Yeah, I'm dat dumb i cant even navigate Photobucket. Anyhow, our faces look cramped down dere cos I had to resize. Sorry girls. That's all the Milahtants that went to East Coast just now. So fun kan!!! There's (from left) AminahAchar(Wadah), EsahEnak(Aisha), PiaPiat(Ain), MamiMilah(Mada),Seri-Gala(Nurul), MamaMelon(Rao) & BedahBelacan(Bah).Just the 7 of us. Wadah tore her pants trying to blade. Hehehe. I wanna learn how to blade...Help!

Yay! Mum gives in and WooHoo! Desprate Housewives! Got to watch it!

http://photobucket.com/albums/y63/Gak0/East%20Coast%20wit%20Milahtants/?action=options

I think this is the link.



I am still the Lord of the Nazguls. Fear me Hobbtyla,Eorlingas&Men of Gondor!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:02:00 PM

Photobucket

This is a test post from Photobucket.com
lord of the rings

Totally rocks. I adore it. I missed part of it. Cos I was watchin d news.

This woman in New York had the cheek to be the Imam when they were guys in the jemaah. That's just wrong. It's against the Islam laws. This people are totally corrupt n sesat. Actually they are just there to shake our faith, like they've done so thousands of years before.

But I managed to see the Lord Nazgul pierce Frodo. I wanna be a Nazgul. Even if it means I will fall into darkness. I wanna be able to terrorize every slime that walks on the face of the Earth. Middle-Earth.

My sis wanna name her son Nazgul Khan. Twisted.

I missed Apprentice. Again. I keep losing track of time. N my TV shows.

The song playing is in the LOTR soundtrack. Enya's May It Be. I love Pippin Took.



I wanna be a Nazgul. Lord of the NAzguls.
~Come not between the Nazgul and his prey. Or He will not slay thee in thy turn.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:49:00 PM

d s'pore idol?

Taufik Batisah,

I think you have a heavy burden on you. Are you S'pore Idol or a Muslim first? Cos it seems you can't be both. I saw you on TV yesterday, lip-syncing your song n dancing among scantily clad girls in sum sort of shiny glittery material. It makes me cringe in horror and disgust though it was probably not your choice to be in d middle of all that maksiat. I pity you.

*not toking to Taufik anymore* N did u see d amount of masyarakat kami di fiesta "high LIving dunno wad" yesterday? Dancing n acting all hippitty hop. Takde culture langsung. Tak rase malu ke dgn pakaian tak cukup benang korang tu? *shudders* It's sick.

N Taufik, stop imitating Michael Jackson.


No. I'm not anti-Taufik.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:16:00 PM

tsk..propaganda n wad not

I've been watchin alot of war movies n I just want to watch one dat is NOT made by the Americans. They tend to show just one side of the story. Like in a war in Somali, 19 Americans and 1800 natives died? See the huge difference?

And in the Viet Nam war, didn't the Americans use chemical warfare? I saw a picture of a Vietnamese child crying as her skin burned n peeled away. Who exactly are the Americans trying to help here? Who are the bad guys?

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:06:00 PM

Saturday, March 19, 2005

history is made

Watched Twilight ZOne yesterday. This woman went back to the past n she took this baby called Adolf Hitler (familiar anyone?) n jumped into the river with him thus she thought that she saved the world from World War 2 as Hitler is dead. However, the maid, for fear of her master (Mr Hitler) wrath were he to find out that his baby is dead, went n bought a begger's baby (she was selling her baby). N d maid brought THAT baby to Mr Hitler n he being so clueless about his own son, accepted the NEW-started-world-war-2 Adolf Hitler. Twisted man. D woman in interfering, helped create history. Dumbass.

My sister went for a chalet from yesterday till wednesday. YAY!!

My adik got beaten with tasbih-s just now. HAH!

I wanna rip blog Milah's template. STOP!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:07:00 PM

corrupted linds

Yeah Lindsay Lohan has come a long way from that sweet red-haired girl in Parents Trap. I just saw her Rumours music video and she really is corrupting all the sweet little girls in the world. Linds is like a reincarnation of Britney Spears but somehow worse. *shudders*

Whee! Lindsay is OUT of American Idol. I don't like her much. I think the final 2 should be Bo Bice and Anwar yes???

And my frens Yati Sya n Rao asked me out today n I was suppose to meet themat what, 1.40? I woke up at 1 u guys n I didn't check my phone till 3. Aper dah...Spoiler.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:30:00 PM

Friday, March 18, 2005

my morning at the salon

I don't know if it is ACTUALLY a salon but it looks like one. What does a salon looks like anyway? Anyhow, Iza treated me to a haircut so I did. That woman sure took a long time to snip away at my hair. Nak act busy ah tu. I fell asleep n actually got a few dreams in while she was cutting away.

Then I was harrassed by this little girl who was waiting for her mother at the salon. Iza calls it playing playfully but she was poking n proding me! her form of tickling i guess. I was hoping desprately she would go away n leave me alone cos I have no idea how to layan children. But she was very frenly (less said for me) n kept giggling at my attempts to protect my body parts. At last I gave up n tried to play with her. I am a hopeless case yes.

On Monday I'm suppose to go to d beach with my girls yea? It was suppose to be today but, cancelled. I feel so lazy to go anywhere lah dey...I'm officially a bum. Hmph.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:56:00 PM

Ikhlas

What is Ikhlas? Nobody knows. And if they say they do, then they are lying. Ikhlas can't be shown with words of the mouth. It's somthing deep inside.

And yes, the Indonesian series on Suria called Ikhlas is coming to an end. *sobs*

AND HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RAO! hehehe...i hope u had fun, watchin IKHLAS. R-E-Z-A!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:10:00 AM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

night is for sleeping

says my dad over and over again. I'm listening to Buble's "The Way You Look Tonight" n my sis is being a pain cos when it's her song playing, she wants to turn it up (complaining she can barely hear a thing) but when it's mine, she wants to turn it off. I am playing my song even softer, WAAAYYY softer than when I played her song n she's complaining about how noisy it is n she can't get to sleep..yadayadayada...She's just as inconsiderate! Why, the other day, she n my other sis seemed to have a freaking picnic over me (what with yaking between them with me in the middle) thus waking me up in terrible fashion. *vulgarities*

I did my errand; got SUMBODY's present. Oh relief...N I am SO darn happy that I finally have A song playing on my blog. Coldplay yeah...awesome band! Muchas gracias Fasehohoho!!!

I think I have found a new series to get addicted to : Amazing Race 7 (7??) . The last time I watched Amazing Race was in Season 2 I think. Hehehe...I love the 2 gay boys. They are just so drama mama!

Hmmm...Mario for Nikko?(american idol) I think I wud still take Mario though...

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
11:46:00 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

vent i need to V-E-N-T

AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!! Shitheads. URGH. I need to run a very important errand. Soon. Tmr will be the last day to do it. N I'll do it myself if it comes to that. I am an island. I hope. I am not gonna waste my money on nonsense stuff that I don't even give a fluff about anymore. That's IT! I shouldn't have siap2 to go out man..waste my energy n time. At least now I have time to go and watch my sister's 2hourplus movie "We Were Soldiers." I hope it's good.

This just in, to ruin my day, Mario Vazquez (this cute latino-looking guy with the hat n incredible voice on American Idol) has dropped out of AI for "personal reasons." So annoying tau. He deprived 1 person from getting into the final 12 just so he could drop out before the 1st show. Damn YOU boy! He could've have won. He-bitch! N Nikko cud have gotten in if not for HIM, asshole. Here are a few reasons why the fans think he dropped out.

1. He didn't want the "American Idol" contract.

2. He's got a skeleton in his closet. (maybe he's gay n has a crush on simon but got cruelly rejected. Hmm..I'll shut up now n stop fitnah-ing him. I'm SURE he's not.)

3. He's going to testify in the Michael Jackson case. (WHAT?)

By the way, he has denied all these allegations. Still I hate him. Hmph. I'm listening to Coldplay now; cos it (coldplay) is the cherry on top of a bad day! (it's only 2 pm now.) I'm so pissed so, so sorry for the extra vulgarities in this post. To add a little spice yeah. I'll go watch TV n rot now. Till tmr.


YOU that's in a higher place, send me down a blessing

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:48:00 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005

my cikgu's wedding

It's too bad I deleted my "Hello" n I cant re-installit now so, no pictures ya. Maybe at Friendster. But Friendster sucks now so we'll just see.

Cikgu Yati looked damn jambu man (which shud be the case since it IS her wedding day which was yesterday) with her make-up and all. It was a hot day n I think everyone got rather snappy, especially me. We arrived at the same time as the groom. Got the kompang, which is my favourite part of a wedding. *dancing to the kompang beats* Then we stood around taking pictures non-stop. All the budak2 Ngee Ann came at around d same time; bersanding time lah.Everyone was dressed so nicely (for lack for a better werd) but the guys ah, in their T-shirts and jeans..Takde culture langsung ah. Tsk tsk. But the girls wore kebayas n baju kurungs.

And we first2 like malu2 nk go up the pelamin with Cikgu n take picture with her n the photographer was like urging us to go. N at last we dah buat muker tak tahu malu, we kept going up the pelamin 5-7 times and the photographer had to hold our 4-5 cameras. I bet Cikgu was very hot n bothered and the Mak Andam kept coming up to pat Cikgu's nose with powder.

We ate like 3 times until the Kendarat boys (the one who picks up the plates n stuff) shot us a dirty look. Heheh. We hung around for quite a while n while Cikgu went to change into another baju (purple! her favourite), we kids sat at her pelamin and took pictures here and there (n made quite a few videos dancing at the table. Egh). I bet ppl wanted to kill us with the (supposedly) delicious ayam merah. But there weren't alot of people, mostly kids n a few adults.

At like 5.30 baru we made our way home but my fren Aisha, lost her beautiful camera! It's such bad luck! Whoever finds that camera is damn lucky. *shakes fist at camera-finder* sigh...back to my boring life now...

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
6:42:00 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

in my hole

Welcome to my hole! My zone! My house. Where i blog n blog non-stop coz there's nothing esle to do BUT. Neverending Story 2 was good. I like dat dog-like-dragon thing. Cute.

Question: Who actually finishes reading the WHOLE of the Straits Times? The Classified, Home, Sports, Recruit n whatnot.

My dad bought it last Saturday n I still haven't finished reading it. It's so darn thick n I skimming takes ages!

Talking about reading, I have 2 thick books under my pillow now, one waiting to be finished, the other waiting for me to get started already. Hmm...Maybe i should start on getting that 1st book finished. It's LOTR (not mine) n I'm am this close to finishin it again. Then there's my sister's Stephen King's TommyKnockers issit? I'm gettin cross-eyed!

"Hi I'm Dory. Hello Dory..."

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
5:39:00 PM

here i am

Will you send me an angel? Here I am, in the land of the morning star! I've got no life man. My daily routine is

1. Wake up at past noon.

2. Clean the house.

3.Rock to some music.

4. Eat.

5. Watch Tv.

6. Eat.

7. Do my stuff on the computer. Exchange songs n whatnot.

8. Do errands for my mum n dad. Pray at the 5 waktu.

9. TV TV TV computer computer, read d occasional book.

10. SLeep at 2 plus am.


I am such a boring person. Ive got nothing todo. Except watch Neverending story now!!! Tata.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:19:00 PM

AAAHH!!

What a cruel joke the fates has played on me...First tagboard goes haywire n ate away at my blog. I switched to shoutbox n hey presto! tagboard's okay. N shoutbox is not. Curse you!!! ARGH!

Hey, I watched Touched By An Angel briefly just now and there was this woman who abandoned her darling baby outside sumbody's door. Then! it started snowing. Poor little baby...I wonder how any mother can abandon their innocent tiny like-a-worm babies, much less throw them down rubbish chutes thus murdering them. Hmph. ANyway, the angel came n protected the baby from the whether. But in most cases, the babies just die from the elements. It's so cruel. N I heard on the radio today about how people abuse their parents! That's just as bad! Hurting the elderly, frail n vulnerable. Jangan contoh si Tanggang!! Derhaka! Kena sumpah memang padan. How can u hurt old people? Imagine beating up the old makcik in tudong selling yummy nasi lemak? Aiyer. N physically hurting your parents is such a sin. Burn in hell.


Ps: AH! Why is Nikko out?? (black guy with the specs in American Idol). I am certain that he has a better singing voice than some of the girls who got thru to final 12. The girls arent that good!
PPs: We had a blast looking for Cikgu's wedding present. I hope she likes it. We took hours didnt we? Cari kotak lah, wrapping paper...ish.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:35:00 AM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

d sun went down in blood red light but the moonMan is still smiling

Life changes so darn fast you know. For instance, I was in the bus today, trying to fight against the current as people made their way down. Then this woman in tudung missed her footing I guess n she went down like a bag of potatoes! (she was wearing an all brown suit)Like CRASH THUD AAHHH SMACK. I think she twisted her ankle On The Way Down. She literally flew out the doors! N landed smack on her back on the kerb. It was horrible! The people on the bus was goin Tsk Tsk Tut Tut. Wad good does THAT do?

Rabak man..One minute you're happily tapping your EZ-link n the world is so beautiful and dandy n the next, you're sprawled between the bus steps n the kerb, burning up with humiliation n a twisted ankle.

One minute you're in extra time with 5 minutes to go and a lovely exciting penalty shoot-out to look forward to (which you will, OF COURSE win), and the next minute your opponent SLAMS the barking ball into the back of the net and "You're OUT of here" says the refree. (well he didn't EXACTLY said that but he might as well had. Darn him.) Yes, Juventus won over Madrid. I'm not that crushed. Really. Oh Liverpool fans everywhere must be so excited ya.

"It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life. "

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:55:00 PM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

don't let the sun go down on me

i think it will though. sigh. it IS night now. D vs Z. Del Piero versus Zidane. Who will win? Ah shit, I gotta sleep before the match but I'm so not sleepy now. N this incredible blank in my head is pissing me off. Urgh.

Oh my dad is on a new quest. It seems that he wants us to eat dinner (or lunch or breakfast. IF we have breakfast.) together. As a family. Why, when I'm already 16 plus that he gets tehidea that we should be the Brady Bunch. I dun get it. We NEVER eat together. We are scattered throughout the house, in the rooms, beside the toilet. N now we, the children, have to prepare a time when we can congregate n hum. I mean eat. Sigh. Father, father, the ideas u have...

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:39:00 PM

The cute 54-yr-old man. In his younger days of course. Mark Hamill as Luke Skywallker. Jeng Jeng!! 

addiction

My dad must be hopping mad cos I think he knows dat I went to bed at 5.45 am this morning when he TOLD me at midnight last night to get to sleep. He's very particular my bedtime n always says, "NIGHT IS FOR SLEEPING!". N he gets even more ticked off when he knows that I've been watching TV the whole night. Heh. Aiyer.It's 3 pm now n Iza is just starting to wake. Hmph.

Did anyone watch the Killer Waves yesterday? SO darn sad man...That woman lost her parents AND her children (adorable baby) is missing. I think they're dead but she seems to have hope, whateva little there is. SIgh.

Oh, I watched The Terminal with my sis till 3 am yesterday. Then, came Chelsea vs Barcelona game. It's brilliant! So exciting! There wasn't a boring moment! But darn it that the Chelsea scums won. It's just LUCK. Upsetting. AND Man U is also booted out of the Champions League for those who even care. *SOBS SOBS* *feeling suicidal*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:04:00 PM

in d dead of night

I wake up...to hear dogs barking. I absolutely cannot sleep if i hear dogs barking. My whole family would wake up. It's cos we worry for our cats. It happened twice or more before that our cats (well, dey were under our care n supervision anyway) got eaten or partially eaten by dogs. I will tell you this story another time. However, this morning (so it wasn't dead of night but it was EARLY) i heard dogs yapping n barking. Ugh. I dislike small dogs. I woke up n was like "*uncomprehensible babbling*" But my sis assured my that it was just pet dogs n the owner was trying to shush them up. Thank god.

Anyway, I just finished watching half the EPL highlights (sore subject) n THE PRACTICE and CSI. Mmmm...good day, good day. I love Alan Shore played by James Spader. He's brilliant really. And there was this old witch bitch of a woman in the Practice called Catherine Piper. Absolute nightmare. Well, Shore defended this guy, who happens to be his best fren, from getting convicted of murder. This plot goes on for 3 episodes! N today was the 3rd. Coz, the guy was deemed innocent n bla3 *claps*. But in the end, Shore finds out that his best fren really did commit the murder. But nothing he can do about it anyways. Sigh. The guy a darn good actor. Asshole.

I'm gonna watch a movie with my sis now. Oh by the way, I'm outraged!!! to see that they (mediacorp as****es) replaced the soap Days Of Our Lives with Triple Nine???? It's ridiculous! Triple Nine has run it's course! James Lye won't come back even if u play all his previous dramas!! Days of Our Lives still has a long way to go! Hello? We (d unfortunate ppl in S'pore who always lag behind in seasons. In this case, in years) are only in the year 1997 (i shud think) n already u want to cut it. Darnit man. Argh.

Ps: I seem to talk about TV alot. Hmmm...

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:46:00 AM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

i'm seeing stars

Well, not anymore really. Since I went back to my old template. *breathes a sigh of relief* It will stay like this for a while. N once I get my new computer (in another decade or two), i'll try to fix my template again alrighty.

Yesterday I watched Star Wars Episode 4. N i'm very upset cos I dun really get all this Star Wars things. Why did they start frm episode 4? Where's episode 1? I cried in dismay. Rupenye episode one is the Phantom Menace. But isn't it weird to haf episode 4 in 1977 n episode 1 in like 2000? Did George Lucas plan to haf his movies go forwards den backwards? Was dere even suppose to be an episode one? Was Star Wars : A New Hope called episode 1 originally then was renamed episode 4 after the making of Phantom Menace in 2000? I'm so blardy confused. ARGH. But I'm in love with a 54-yr old man. HAHAH. Luke Skywalker. He looks good. Back then.

Ps: Moulin Rouge rocks.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:55:00 PM

:.the perfect tragedy.:Girl Kills Self Over No-Music Playing Blog *crumbles*

We should constantly think about death so as to not get caught up in the falsehood of this world.
N then will I be at peace.

He said, I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me
When a moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days, looking at the x-rays
And talking 'bout the options, and talking 'bout sweet time


I asked him, when it sank in
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit ya when you get that kind of news
"Man, what'd ya do?"
He said


I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chew
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin
And he said, Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin

He said, I was finally the husband that most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend, a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden, goin' fishing wasn't such an imposition And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I, I finally read the Good Book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then


I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chew
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin
And he said, Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin


Like tomorrow was a gift
And you got eternity to think about what'd you do with it
What would you do with it
What did I do with it
What would I do with it


Skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chew
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin
And he said, Someday I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin
Live like you were dyin'
Live like you were dyin'
Live like you were dyin'
Live like you were dyin'

Tim McGraw's Live Like You Were Dying

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:43:00 PM

Monday, March 07, 2005

helpppp

it's now 7.55. the JAE question is out of my mind now cos it's too late to change anyway. instead, a new problem presents itself to me. i guess it's my fault for paying such close attention to it. it's the little white brackets above my heading. do u see it? It's right above my date,day n title. It irritates me so much i just have to change my whole template. but it just gets worse. and also, i can stand it that my archives (with the heading PAST) is like not in one straight line. Can u see that it is messy??? Wavy archives. Whoeva heard of that. ARGH!!! I feel like ripping down my entire blog. that's it. im goin back to the neat, simple, no-tagboard way. tata.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
7:51:00 PM

im thinking. im so worried. just staring. waiting for 6 o clock so i'll be put out of my misery n indecisiveness. god help me. choices. decisions. i suck at them. 6 pm please come. stay still till then. i dunt know if i'll be happy even if i change. it. help. 6 pm 6 pm 6 pm 6 pm 6 pm 6 pm

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4:12:00 PM

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Tragedies

I've just finished watching "Moulin Rouge." God I love that story. "The perfect love story. The perfect tragedy." I totally agree with you Bubs. She had to die. It was so colorful, so vibrant n full of life! It was a wonderful musical i should think. At least it wasn't soppy and lame like the Tamil, Hindustan & Chinese movies I've been watching lately.

Why, this afternoon's Tamil show was rather tragic. Guy loves girl. Girl's brother beat Guy up for daring to fall in love with his sis or sumthing. Guy's frens went looking for Girl's brother n beat HIM up. Guy went to stop it, got hit by a vehicle and died. Guy's father, went n burnt the Girl alive. So drama man. Rabak.

Anyway, I got back from ugama this morning n my sis Sha told me that a very old fren from our masjid, his name is Ahmad Abadi i think, got into an accident last night. Apparently he was trying to do a "Wheelie" on his fren's scrambler n hit a tree. A branch made a hole in his body n his frens had to pull it out. Basically, he's in ICU now, with half his liver n a kidney gone. They had to throw it away cos it was damaged. N they also took out his stomach n intestines cos they were swollen n I'm not sure about the exact details. But i do know that half his organs are NOT where they are supposed to be. His mother can just cry lah. I wanna cry listening to my mum recount the incident. Sigh. Kesian. How is he gonna continue his life now? He's only 22 this year.*SIGHS*

Hmm...N I wonder what I'll do if anything happens to any of my family members. When my father got into his accident, i was too young (P6) to be really worried or anything. But looking back, it was really serious. Heck, my brother cried. Thank god nothing else happened. I wonder what would my mum do if anything should happen to my bro? Her only son? Hmm...*shivers* I'll just pray for Abadi. N my family.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:03:00 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

I really really want to go n watch The Rugrats Movie now. Heck. I'm going. NOOOOooo!!! It's finished!!!Damn, they are showing the Miss Singapore Universe thing now. Don't they know nobody cares? We, the people, rather watch Rugrats! Sigh.

I made my choices for the JAE thing. But I'm not so sure anymore. I was really pressured cos this TP lecturer was hanging in the background, peering at me n the computer all the time. I went to Temasek Poly to use the computer there cos the system was so jammed. Well, it's not anymore since they extended the dateline. I'm really worried about my choices. I just hope Allah gives me the best course for me. I mean, I didn't want Ngee Ann Secondary School when I got it. But I was happy there n I made it out; a good person I hope. Just pray.

IT IS DONE. What is?, u ask. ~

1. I b/u/r/n/t my fren's Coldplay CD. Finally. I get to listen to Yellow as many times as I want!

2. I b/u/r/n/t the same fren's George Bensen CD. Unfortunately, it is abit rosak. Rao, I can't play no.4!!! How??? I have a good mind to just buy the CD.

3. I did my JAE. Though I'm still not happy.


I wanna go on a CD-shopping spree. First thing that I JUST have to get it my Lion King DVD. YES. I just need money $$$ now. You know what? I've got nothing to say so I'll shut up.

Ps: Iza really wants to drag me to Indonesia to go shopping. Irritatingnye! I hate flying okay!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:51:00 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

It is done.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:01:00 PM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Rahmat

I remember waking up at 4.55am today n going, "Rahmat Allah, rahmat Allah." Cos i heard rain. RAIN. No, not the stupid Rain the singer. But real actual glorious rain. Hmmm..ahhh...I love the smell of rain. Lebat pulak tu. Then there was thunder and it was cold. I felt like dancing in the rain!!! It's been so long since i actually saw rain. I didnt really see it just now but it's comforting to know that it's there n that the trees got to soak up the water. Hmmm.....I love the rain.

Ps: My stomach hurts so bad now. N i still have to choose my other courses. ARGH.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
5:35:00 PM

Below are all my pictures that I have'nt got the chance to put up. Alot sey.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:29:00 PM

On the Way to my Nenek's house, saw this bush fire n took the picture from inside the taxi. U can see the orange glow behind the trees n the red CD truck. It's a bit blur cos the taci was moving so fast. 

Iza nk action orang arab konon..Gahaha 

Another worthy Iza-kill-Mada picture... 

Mak's cake that my brother bought.. 

Our Earthquake. Can u feel the earth move???  

Took some pictures while waiting for our ice-cream which took forever... 

Ain poring over the menu... 

Aisyah giving us a "look" cos we were so kecoh during the ordering of our ice-cream.. 

AT school 2 weeks ago... 

Nis,Fas & Me...Incomplete BB. 

After results..muker da buruk 

Before results... 

This is her...the lady. Bahriah gave her boobs! 

Busy Painting in the Morning 

Nobody said It was easy

If only I listened. It wasn't suppose to be easy. I took it too lightly. I hope those who saw us crying will not repeat the same mistake that we did. Fooling around all the time. But we had fun. Was it worth it? I'm syukur lah but I am still terribly disappointed. So so...We came to school early last Monday. Painted Cikgu Hayati's classroom walls for her. N we got wedding invitations too. Yay! My very first card jemputan! I feel all makcik-y. 13 March, keep dat space free. I dropped paint on my uniform so i came to the hall with a dirty uniform. That always happens to me; it's expected. I can't believe it is over. The wait was so long and everyone was so damn nervous, some people already started crying even before the results. So drama mama okay.

My results are fine. Average. Argh. I got a C6 for Literature. Can u believe it? C6. C6. C6 okay!!! AH!!! Who to blame? Myself? But then how is it that all those in my class (we are the ONLY Lit class) who were supposedly GOOD at Lit (according to a certain Mdm Bird) got Cs, n Es huh?? DAMN IT! I am sooo furious cos i know I'm NOT stupid! (not that i'm cocky). I just think the blame does not lie on us solely. N those who blocked out what Mdm Birds says n just hates her gets a B!!! I feel really spiteful n bitter now. Got an A2 for English & Malay. Another, ARGH!!! *stabs self* That's horrendous! But at least for English i was expecting it. It was my worst oral n compo done EVER! But Malay A2? Aku bukan anak orang melayu ke? Yes, i'm half indian but it's not as if I speak Tamil at home. Sheesh. I know I know, I'm complaining quite alot. Sigh. BUT

I got to meet my BB!!!!!!!!!!! (Ps: BB is NOT my boyfren's name or stands for Baby okay? Aiyer.)Da LAMER KITER TAK JUMPE EH!!!!!!! SHIT! We didn't take a BB picture. Haiyoh. But met my dear dear frens Fas n Nis. Nis & Yana, please study for ur Os really hard kay n don't cry on results day. Dun screw up. Fas, you too. After the crying, the wails of "I'm stupid!!" and the smiles accompanying "I did badly!!", we finally fell silent, regrouped, and started laughing. Just laughing and laughing. N talking and laughing. N eating. Hmmm. It seems we never change do we.

Today we chose wad courses we wanna go. I got 9 only. N i need 12. Darn it.


I want Coldplay.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:50:00 PM

I'm Back

Now that I'm back, I wanna rant. About. Bus drivers. YES! Yesterday i think, I took the bus 3 home. It was an air-conditioned bus with no air con! The air-con was like me breathing on someone's cheek! (maybe i'm being dramatic) N the doors n windows were shut; it was so stiffling hot n stuffy. I was worried that there was no ventilation or something. N then, the bloody bus driver just HAD to stop at every red light and every bus stop even though no one was hailing (is that the word?) it. Two Chinese woman went up to him and started nagging n scolding him to turn up the air-condition. He turned it up. A teeny bit. Cannot tahan sey.

N today, the 17 bus i took, was damn crazy sey. He drove like he was driving a formula one race car! Swerve, speed, left,right, red light, BRAKES! Mabuk sey!! N I'm outraged to find that even though I took 3 bustops less than i usually do but, I still had to pay $0.83. It's the same route but i took the bus from another place, which was nearer my house, so should be cheaper than my usual $0.83 right? But NO! Asal ah? Can SUMONE tell me??? Is dere corruption in the bus industry???? AHHHH!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:50:00 PM

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