Sunday, December 31, 2006

they know not that hearts can break with their words

How do you know how to jaga hati orang when you don't even know that the things you say can hurt & offend them?


Ye Anjaane Ye Begaane
Inhe Kaam Hai Kya Jazbaat Se
Na Yeh Jaane Na Yeh Maane
Dil Toote Hain Inke Haath Se

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
11:41:00 PM

when the cat's away, the mouse will play

So Tina and me danced joyfully in our room, even though we were late. I stood at the foot, or rather, by my father's foot on the bed and stared at him and pleaded and whined until he gave me money to take a cab to Simei. Because it was hot.

Only Bubu and Nenek was there, and Romi of course. And when we found out that my Yayi was in the hospital, it was time to ciao. Oh by the way, Momot has gotten so much friendlier! I don't dislike him anymore. He's too cute.


We took a cab to Jurong, all because Tina & me were too malas and we sacrificed whatever money we had. The cab driver was annoying, as usual. Stopped so far away. And when I was walking towards my grandfather's block, I heard screeching. I stopped. Looked around. Shrug and continue walking. More screeching, with added wailing. It sounded like someone was being tortured. It sounded like...



I quickly went up the stairs, and sure enough! My makcik was karaoke-ing. Ewah ewah! It's our family thing, these karaoke sessions, a tradition. Though I will NEVER put myself through that. Even with Jehan trying to shove the mike at me and Abg Wan looking shocked and asking, "Madah boleh nyanyi?!?" Thanks a lot.


What happened was, my aunt brought my Yayi to the hospital...and left him there!!! But of course they all went back for him, which led to the house being empty of adults. Though Nadia claimed to be an adult, I don't really agree.

Yayi suffered from a mild stroke, I heard. And they all waited there for hours and now he's warded and I'm upset a bit cos I know old people donch like hospitals, they DONCH LIKE IT DAMNIT! And Hari Raya Haji somemore, and he wasn't there and how sucky was that?! Boohoo.



Anyways, we watched one ghost movie after another. Had intervals, where the cousins would start karaoke-ing. Asyik asyik asyik! So mentel. Lagu dangdut bergitu. And the show we 1st watched, "Ghost Game" had such horrible subtitles, it distracted all of us from the point of the story. Which had no point so it's not that terrible a loss. Everybody dies, it's gruesome and we laughed and giggled.


Kak Pon & her husband came soon after the adults left. She's big now. Because she's pregnant, not cos she's fat! And her husband is as quiet as a mouse. And then Bai & his future wife and Haseen came and then my dad came and I laughed at him cos he was the only adult and that was terribly boring so he hastily made his escape to the hospital soon after.


We kept changing shows, and Abg Wan was telling us about a show about how everybody is horribly murdered and Iman rubbed his chin thoughtfully and said, "Action or horror?"

I swear that kid is getting more morbid by the day.


It was weird, like just having cousins to talk to. Usually my aunts would shriek and scream with laughter, adding to the noise but with just us, it's rather quiet. We're good kids. Though all of us are above 10 (Iman barely making it) and poor Sairah, we're too old for her. She ajak-ed us to play downstairs and we all looked horrified. There was a time when that prospect would have sent us bouncing around with glee. Urgh O-L-D.






Okay noone in these pics except for Tina & me knows about my blog and even though I said I wouldn't publish these pictures, nobody will ever know. Has to know. *cackle*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:29:00 PM

selamat hari raya haji

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone. I think last year, the sheeps were delayed due to the strange alignment of Mars and the now non-existent Pluto. And also, of course, because the ship they were on was...delayed.


I really want to watch a sheep get slaughtered. I've only witnessed one live and upclose. Like close enough you can smell the blood and see it gushing out from their necks. Morbid fascination. I want to say it's brilliant but that sounds like I'm enjoying it too much but really, it's one heck of an experience. I would like to see a cow or even better, a CAMEL slaughtered next. Camels are huge and I wonder how the hell do they hold them down. Fooh.


I was looking around about sheep and there's this blog dedicated to sheep. Haha!
http://sheepworld.blogspot.com/
Very cute.

And I found some jokes about sheep and this is the safest that I could take. The rest are too...sexual.


Two dumb (blond) sheep are walking on the grasslands. Suddenly they both fall into a hole. They can't get out.
The first dumb blond sheep starts to shout: "Help!! Help!!"
It does not seem to work. No help is coming.
The first dumb sheep shouts again: "Help!!! Help!!"
The second dumb sheep says: "It might help if we shout together."
The first dumb sheep shouts: "Together!! Together!!"


Hahaha okay maybe it's not that funny. It made me snort at least.


And lastly, a picture.


tricked by tuna

Looking at the cans that tuna comes in, you would think that the actually fish looks like ikan bilis. Call me ignorant but imagine my surprise when I was "Ooohh"-ing and "Aaahh"-ing over this huge fish I saw on TV only to be told by my mother that it's tuna.

AH! The betrayal! The shock! They deceived me! I've been cheated! Or as Bah would say, "Bamboozled! Misinformed!" I suspect sardines would come out as big as sharks nowsadays. Why, WHY! pack them into tiny teeny cans, I ask you? Thank god I don't eat Tuna or else I don't know what I'll do!

Anyways, the sheep are coming in tomorrow. I wonder, do sheep clones taste the same as the real ones? Does the clone Arnold Susah-Nak-Eja have the same accent as the real one? Yes apparently. Okay whatever.


Ps: Saddam was executed this morning. GASPS & shrugs. I want to watch Becker.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:06:00 PM

Friday, December 29, 2006

see a leaf, eat a twig

My knee really hurts! From walking too much? I don't think so. I must have kicked something out of place somewhere. It feels odd.

I still have my $100. Even though I went to Beach Rd, Bugis, Taka & Tamp (in that order) with Fas & Sya just now. Salah ke, sayang duit? Yes! Not because money is the root of all evil. But because LOVE of money is the root of all evil! Anyways, I hope we burnt off some fats.


Oh Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone in advance! That night I will have a kenduri I think. So I guess...we're going to Nenek's at night? So why did I bother to bother my bothersome cousin just now? Bleah. And the day after that is my cousin, or rather 2nd cousin's engagement.

Which brings us to the 1st important question of the year 2007. What am I suppose to wear!?! ARGH. Cousins, what are you guys wearing? We're all going right? It's a compulsory thing? ARGH.

Pakai daun uh.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
11:21:00 PM

Thursday, December 28, 2006

irritated island

I'm so annoyed!! First, GM was suppose to meet up today but people started cancelling one after the other. Thank god I can ignore all that cos I had to go to Johor baby!! And actually, I wasn't very excited. Johor? So bloody what. So near, I could swim there. If I could swim. I could try to float! E for effort.

And along the way, my sisters and um whoever else annoyed me and we got yelled at by my mother and it was nasty but I got juicy chicken as a reward for putting up with them, and them with me.

Can you believe we spent like 8 hours at Angsana?! What were doing?!?! WHAAT!!!!! ARGH!!! LOST HOURS OF MY LIFE!! AARRGGHH!!! I could have been at home, doing nothing!!! AARRGGHH!! Oh, the enjoyable emptiness that I could have well, ENJOYED! Oh wait, no I wouldn't have enjoyed because I would have been at home, thinking about cancelled plans and undone projects. So yeah, ANGSANA WHOOHOO!!


Pizza Hut, boy oh boy, they never saw ME coming! ME! Pizza-hater, in their outlet?! Newsworthy I tell you. And the only shirt that I bought, I eventually gave to Iza. Why? Because it was too small for my taste. DAMNIT. It was really nice too. AAARRGHH! I desperately need retail therapy.


"Maner kau belajar nie retail retail nier semua ah Madah?!" my inner makcik screams. Sorry makcik, but I've been influenced. Brainwashed. ZOMBIEFIED. Oh well. I really...*turns away* I just CANNOT BELIEVE!!! I gave that Tshirt to Iza!! True she gave me money for that shirt. But I really liked it. And that's rare. AARRGHH. AAARRGH. AARRGGHH. I wanted to show the Tshirt to Sya & Yati. Boohoo.


What a stupid entry. I've always thought Angsana was a tree. Now I realize, it's a huge shopping mall, waiting to trap unsuspecting teenagers like me!! UWEK. Eh, it seems I DO have one more baju after all. Baju butterfly!! *giggles madly* So if you wanna see me in it, come sleep over!

Peace out!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:06:00 PM

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

champagne supernova

My brother was in the rain, from 9 last night until 11 this morning. I told him "How exciting!" And he sourly told me that it was no fun getting wet socks syndrome. All that water getting into your shoes, having to shoo away curious people, including CNA. I asked, "What color raincoat were you wearing?" To which he replied glumly, "Yellow, with POLICE on the back."

See, he was guarding...a landslide. Geez. I was wondering, how much help would he be? What, clutch onto the soil for dear life? Try to hold them together?


But at this point, he cheered up visibily and said,

"Kalau aku terperangkap eh, bawah landslide, aku akan kata,
*cue wailing*
Someday you will find me...
Caught beneath the LANDSLIDEEE IDDEEE..."


I KNEW he was just WAITING for the perfect opportunity to use that. Geez.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
11:58:00 AM

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

victory!

I saw movement from the corner of my eye. I turned and watched her. You never know with them, so easily amused by a piece of paper. I craned my neck to try and see what caught her attention. I looked, I saw, I shivered. It just HAD to be one of them.

One of those guys, who crawl around on tiptoes. I turned away, disgusted. I had hoped she and her brother would take care of him for me. But I still kept an eye on them. They have such short attention spans, he could easily distract them by leaving one wriggling hairy leg behind and making his escape. I knew he was gone from the balcony when I saw her and her brother playing catching, not a care in the world for their prey and for the hand who feeds them. Ingrates.


My guard was up; I looked around carefully, only occasionally glancing at my rice with curry chicken to make sure I'm putting edible things into my mouth. And then, I went to the fridge, rummaged through the vegetable compartment in search of chocolates. I warily looked behind me. I could feel it. Feel him. He's there watching me, I know it. He's very much alive. Those two brats can't do anything right.

I quickly grabbed the chocolates I found and put it in my pocket. And then, THERE HE WAS! Right in front of me! Trying to quietly creep past me. I screamed, more from shock than anything else. Nobody was there to protect me. I had to do this by myself. For once, I am glad that my dad bought that thick pile of newspapers. I picked up a copy of Classified and rolled it.

Bravely moved closer and SMACK SMACK SMACK!!!


Ran back, grabbed a thick wad of papers and the sounds of me beating him, squashing him to death echoed through my living room. My mother grunted at me, signalling I should shut up.

No matter, because SUCCESS! VICTORY!!













Mampos kau lipas.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:44:00 PM

sexy sexy sexy

A huge flying cockroach flew into my room just now. Since then, we found 2 more in my house. Big ass ones. The types that will start munching on your flesh if you stay still too long. Oh god, I cannot handle this I cannot handle this! I refuse to sleep!

My dad says it's because of the rain. Maybe the drains are flooded. They don't like cold. They like the warmness of my house. It's enough to send me running to attempt to fit into the freezer. The rain, it's driving all of them OUT. First stop, my freaking house. Just because I live on the ground floor. AARGH. AAARRGGH. AAARGGHH. AARRGGHHH. AAARRGGGHH. AAAARRGGGHHH.

Sexy, sexy sexy. Yes sexy.

My dad got pretty irritated with me after I kept up the terrified girl act for a while and said sternly, "How are you going to live in this world?! Tell me! How are you going to live in this world huh?! If cockroach also you get scared! It's not like you live in the jungle with snakes!"

To which I muttered, "I rather live with snakes."


Why is he suddenly worried about my survival skills? Just help me kill the cockroaches lah! Cows stress ah beb STRESS! Send my blood pressure up Up UP!!!! His lack or rather, non-existent sympathy astounds me! Shocking!! Outrageous!!! And when I wanted to switch on the fan, he said that I don't care at all. All I want to do is pressure him and tekan him and when he's sick somewhere, after all he's done for me!

True he's done alot but the fan?? I offered to get blankets for him!


Enough about that. Tina and me went and closed all the windows in our room. My mother didn't help with her deathly tales about human-eating roaches. I think I'm going to be sick. WHERE'S IZZAH?! AARGH. AAARRRGH. AAARRGHHH. AAARRRGGHHH. AAAARRGHH.

Sexy sexy sexy.

In these trying times, we must stick together! Tina is so brave, she's going to try and sleep. Oh god I need to pee. But I don't want to. EEEE. I watched this show where the roaches hide and when you least expect it, they climb all over you and EAT YOU DAMN IT.

CURSE YOU NO-GOOD SCUMS!!!











You know I'm gone when I'm hugging a bag of mothballs tightly to my chest.
*rocks back and forth chanting quietly sexy sexy sexy*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:33:00 AM

Monday, December 25, 2006

hari natal

I just want to say two things.

1) Men are bastards and jerks. Except for my father.

2) Hugs become insignificant. It loses meaning and value.

Peace out.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:14:00 AM

Sunday, December 24, 2006

go ahead, be gone with it

I finally got it. One Live Man U match this year. Which they won. Disappointed though, by the absence of Solskjaer and Heinze. And the game wasn't that exciting. The first half was frustrating, Villa were really defending and making every opportunity count! And then, it got close to the 60th minute and Yati was starting to get unhinged and then Ronaldo finally gets one.

Our reaction: I dropped my fork and some maceroni on the carpet and Yati broke her clip.
YAY RONALDO! Him and his superb runs. But I hate when they wait too long.


And then BOOM! Out of nowhere, a "Scholes screamer". He's brilliant! And Ronaldo almost got a hat-trick because I truly believe, in my hearts of hearts, that his second goal wasn't offside. Parallex error!!! But he got his 3rd one easy. *whoops*





After Man U's game, we went to Cheers to get some snacks. Bah warned us that there was no shelter and at first I thought it was only a short distance so takpe lah. Sekali punyer lah jauh!

And that's how we ended up jogging in the rain at 1 am in the morning. We looked super ridiculous. Bah was faster and Yati had me gasping for air, she cracked me up with her anguished cries of "Nooo...please don't run....stooooppp....NNNOOOOO!!" I don't know why we even bothered to jog, we weren't even gaining any ground! And we got wet. And our specs got blurry so we couldn't see the way.


Ah now THAT should have been documented. It's a really nice feeling, noone's around, it's cold and rainy. Perfect. And I laughed so hard I couldn't even run properly.


We came back and I wanted to watch Chelsea's game so we did. Damn, it was better than Man U's game. I was really rooting for Wigan and right before half time, Wigan scored! and had us bouncing around.



They were so close too but damn, curse you Robben scum!! Stoppage time winner. Urgh.


We did John Johnny & John after that.



High Fidelity was good and Jack Black was funny as usual and John Cusack was such a jerk and a bastard in the show but I love him so I forgive him. Once Upon a Time in Mexico was very "Bedah Confused!" -ing. I wonder what Johnny Depp was thinking, acting in a show like that. Tak make sense! It made Yati hide under the blankets and have a hyperventilate cum giggling fit. We didn't bother watching the whole thing; we went by scene selection. And saw that "I can be your hero baby" guy.
We played Swordfish after that but AH TRAITORS!! Bah and Yati went to sleep, leaving me behind so I stopped the cd and played...FACE OFF!

Yessa I finally get to watch the beginning of Face Off. Nicholas Cage is uh...weird. Nice weird. I like weird. And oh John Travolta is just excellent as a villain. Though I really want to watch Grease again.


And then, the next morning we woke up late. And Bah was late for work. Boo. Oh that reminds me, I HAVE HAVE to go out and buy Gladiator. Somewhere. It's my dad's favourite movie. Must get!

Peace out.
OW!

I think yesterday was my second time to Orchard in like 7 years. The other time I didn't even stop, I just walked past but it's still counted right. Anyways, our John, John & Johnny day didn't turn out cos our inside (wo)man had irresponsible groupmates. To sum it up. So we turned to Vivo!

Our Virgin Voyage to Vivo. Yati and me latched onto Ain and she laughed at us. AIN. Yes finally, she makes a comeback, just like Take That but less stale and more welcomed.

And everybody was late. Except for Ain Yati and Rao. I attempted to run after the bus, almost broke my ankle and stepped into something awful and when I got on, I realized I had clumps of grass attached to my slippers. It was so traumatizing. I brought them all the way to Outram before they dried off and fell off, leaving behind only a sticky feeling and horrible memories.


We wanted to take 65 back to Tampines, but when Naza wanted to drop off at town, we all decided to follow her. Because Rao & me can't bear to part with our Hindustan songs. AH HINDUSTAN! Trying to bhangra in our seats. And then Malay dancing in the streets. And that STICK MAN. Omg he's so gross, I got goosebumps. Those guys on stilts. Super eurgh.

And then bowling our way around ngee ann city and damn, depositing a few books off at the library took so long because we had to pause for stragglers and non-stragglers became stragglers and ah BIG GROUP BIG GROUP.

Hmmm I don't feel like blogging so that's just too bad and so yeah...I will just post pictures. I so want to watch Man U's game tmr with Yati. Dum dum dum...


First up, our Geng Milah Mee Special.







You're suppose to put the price tag somewhere into the bowl at this point. And then cover it for a while. Or forever; it's really up to your own taste buds.




Rao is the chef actually, encouraged mostly by Yati, and then Ain and me. So, the finished product will be this.



And Ain is so sweet, she baked Fas & me this cake!! I knew something was up Ain when you wouldn't let me look into the box! Grrr!



Thank you darling. She's such a sweetheart. MIA or not.



The pool at Vivo is NOT FOR SWIMMING. But you still see families treating the place like East Coast freaking Park. Oh well.



Time with them is never dull.

OW! *flaps my feathers*


Ps: The process of buying a handphone is so painful. I rather have my teeth pulled out.




hey pretty

Watching Prison Break can really really make your blood pressure go up! But the thing is, I don't think that this show is fun as reruns because, you only have the suspense and high stress level the first time you watch it. Kindda like LOST.

I think they will go back to jail because there's season TWO and if they aren't in jail, then why the hell would it be call Prison Break? Okok don't tell me okay. I just need to get season 2 NOW. URGH. Like Fas would say, suspenders betul.


On another (c) note, I'm trying to hide. I wonder if there's anybody in the world who has never procrastinated anything in their life before. Even if it's something simple like shitting. "Yeah let me finish this game first before I let poop fly." I'm pretty sure that such a person does not exist.

Now I'll do an Elmo and ask, 'Do babies procrastinate?" Maybe not consciously. Hmmm...Okay ciao snowflake.

Ps: I forgot how funny Becker can be sometimes. I wish Channel 5 would show him sometimes. I miss Channel I. BOOHOO.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
7:15:00 PM

no backspacing

FINALLY!! We get to meet Nuwai!!! And apparently, she's a silent reader of all our blogs so watch out what you say about her because she IS WATCHING YOU. *points to my eyeballs and to your eyeballs*

She's dorky, she smells nice, she has soft baby hair, really long too and she had a growth spurt. A bit late for that donch ya think? But yes, she's taller. Which. is. weird. But she's still Nuwai, insensitive like that, coming out with things that sounds wrong which makes Yati & me hyperventilate.


In other news, we watched Eurotrip which I FIRMLY BELIEVE, is R-22. Talk about blatantly throwing boobs and dicks around, wherever you please. Urgh. MY EYES! Yeah but it is entertaining. Because I'm female and the sight of either of these um, body parts do not excite me.


This Thursday is suppose to be John & John & Johnny day. That is John Travolta, John Cusack and Johnny Depp. WHOOHOO! Bah I've decided what I want to watch now! Can we please please please get it?! Wheeheee! I want to watch Benny & Joon, High Fidelity, Get Shorty, Being John Malkovich, Ed Wood, Cry-Baby, Two of a Kind (because it has the same leads as GREASE, but we can't get Grease cos VideofreakingEzy doesnt have it).

Oh and you know, The Thin Red Line has both Cusack and Travolta so we can watch that too! Heehee. Though I don't think you guys would like war movies. Hmmm...Ive been wanting to watch that show since FOREVER.

Okay it's late and I need to enjoy the rain. I love it. I hope it never stops. Until Thursday at least. It's perfect weather, have I mentioned? *twirls around whooping*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:11:00 AM

Monday, December 18, 2006

dorm

The summary at the back is enough for me to dismiss it as another lame horror movie. But boy, this was more than a movie about ghosts. I don't think that was even the point. It's like Nang Nak actually! Oh I so want to watch Nang Nak again.

The lead character in this Thai ghost story is this boy, who can act oh superbly well. There was this one scene with him eating his telur dadah and I just LOVE that scene. It's so fantastic. Him remembering home and those few tears that comes out which he furiously rubs away. He's so handsome and his friend and him just makes the whole thing so very enjoyable to watch.

He acted in My Girl too, the Thai version. So that makes me want to watch THAT one. But I really want to watch the other My Girl. The original. I've only watch it once and it made me cry crybaby. Can't find it though. Blyearh.



are you picking up what I'm putting down?

I have a theory. Flights are like Milahtants. They say "3 pm", but if there's one thing you can count on in life, is that there will definitely be delays. Have you ever seen a flight on time? And likewise, have you ever seen a Milahtant on time? Unless it's Yati, Nis or YanaS of course. Asyik delayed ajer. I want my parents back!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:20:00 PM

If the lady be young and fair

My sister, Siti Payung, came back to Spore recently but it is so very unfortunate that on the day she landed, my parents took off. My jetsetting parents. Okay not jetsetting maybe, but boat-sailing perhaps. To Batam. And somehow ended up in Bali. Which prompted my aunt to say,

"Mak kau kat Bali? Buat aper?? Topless in Bali eh? And bapak kau pulak? Bottomless? *insert evil cackle*"


Always in Indon. But we have always managed fine on our own. This abandonment-period has been the worst though, cos even though my mother left us proper food to eat, we had pizza delivered 3 nights in a row. Long John and more Long John. MacDonalds. Chicken for me, since I don't eat pizza. KFC. Ice-cream! My very first time eating Ben & Jerry, which tasted like underwear. Okay not underwear but seluardalam. I think underwear and seluardalam would taste different. Don't you agree?


Oh and Aishah brought back chocolates, bags of chocolates. SOO MUCH that I thought that we can never finish it all. Since we were all sick and we couldn't take it. It's almost a week later now and yesterday, I tried looking for the chocolates and they were gone. Geez.

And Dunkin Donuts! Man I'm really working my way around, trying it out with DunkinDonuts all over the world! I still think Indon's are the best. DD tastes just like all other donuts alright; it's just that whenever I eat them from their box, it makes me feel like a fat American cop. Smile.


Bank of Aishah was open for the day. And sis, seriously, nobody was yelling for a Mini Cooper! Even we're not THAT demanding!






My sisters love me, yes they dooo.

Even though I just got yelled and cursed at by Iza because a kumbang landed somewhere in our room and I didn't react fast enough or didn't throw myself over our bunk beds, into the living room, swiped the tissues off the table, slide back into the danger zone and then volley them to her in a graceful arc that would put Sharapova to shame. Well excuse me for becoming a tad hysterical.

And sorry Iza but I didn't know what pictures to put of you since all of them are what you would consider ugly. (She was wearing a shirt that said TEAMWORK.)


This was Friday, which was suppose to be surprise-Fas-day but I don't know if it worked. But the present that we got for her though, nearly reduced Rao & me to tears. I want it. Boo.



Happy 16th my dear.


Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
I am looped in the loops of her hair.
correspondence log

I think it's a violation of my rights. Hey wait, this is Spore, what rights? Back in Primary 6, my teacher made us do this log thing. Not like keeping a journal. Just, keeping track of what we did, every single minute for about 3 days. Or was it a week?

So I actually borrowed a wristwatch from my friend for that length of time, and did exactly that. I remember jotting down somewhere,
"315pm - 331pm: Made and drank Milo"
"107pm - 143pm: Rolled and lazed around"
"445pm - 532pm: Played with kittens"

I was damn detailed. And accurate. To the exact minute. I wish I still that that pieces of paper. I would like to remember what I did everyday back when I was 12.


She really did read everything I wrote. Making comments here and there. I wonder why she wanted us to do that? To reflect? But she didn't give us a chance to! Or atleast, she didn't tell us to do it. Not told to do so, so I didn't. Yes, I think it's a violation of human rights. Or student rights. All that is private! Why the hell does she want to know what I do every minute of everyday?!

It's creepy yes.


Though now I think, I would like to do that. Keep a minute-by-minute log. All I need now is a wristwatch.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:11:00 PM

Rain, don't you love the rain? I think my dad said once that the rain bawak turun rahmat. Or something like that. It's good to doa when it's raining. I woke up today and it was raining. Perfect weather for sleeping.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
3:01:00 PM

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Siti Payung has left the building people! UWEK!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:33:00 PM

something to remember

I'm such a sap. I finally watched "A Walk to Remember" and yeah, Nis was right. It was sad. Even though I already knew the WHOLE story because she told me, I still cried. Say it with me, "Sap!" But I don't care. *sniffles*

Mandy Moore didn't annoy me in this movie somehow. I've always had a bad impression of her and her stupid act-cute voice going "Stupid cupid, stop picking on me!" Bloody annoying. But she was okay here. I like her bangs. And it's ELI! That guy from Once & Again. HOT. *dreamy-sighs*


And before that, I watched "13 going on 30" (that made me think, I want a guy bestfriend too!) and somehow, managed to squeeze a few tears out. I'm not emosi okay!! Somebody said something somewhere and it just made me go, "I feel you my brader!" *shrugs* But it isn't a movie that I would bother going to a cinema for.

Actually, I wouldn't go to a cinema for ALOT of movies. Complete waste of money if you ask me.


And I watched Silent Hill before that! Silent Hill was...ultra creepy. The ghosts or monsters were really really, freaky shitte. Fascinated me to no end. And how those people died? Fooh cool man. *nods* Watch it, if you have time. Cos it's so bloody slow. And I didn't get the ending but I went to do research and yeah, got it now.


I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended to soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
And I was changed
- Cry

Ps: Oh god Madah...Sheesh.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:59:00 AM

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

semua ada hikmahnya

GAH!!! Finally, a cheerful post?

Fas came over to my house yesterday so that we both could drool over Wentworth Miller simultaneously. WHEEE!!! Dah lamer dong she tak datang! And I brought out the chocolates and we dug in. So unhealthy.

And then we watched Hikmah and so kental, she wanted to go home after Hikmah ends but it was going to end at midnight so NO GO! Abort abort! But we did get to smack, slap and scream at each other every time Gunawan comes on screen and does his handsom thing. "Kamu buat saya kangan sama kamu..." HAHAHA! Bagaimana tak cair dong...This image of him in our minds is so dreamy-sighs.





Aiyah the ending actually quite sedih man. I shed ONE tear. And aduhai, the guys all kacak bangat! And I adore Surya and his accent. I try to imitate him but tak menjadi. Boohoo.


"Jangan mimpi di siang hari Sham..."

And Iza played that show "Pasrah" just now and though it's been years since we've watched it, I could still recite the lines. And it still managed to make Iza and Tina cry. I was just fascinated with my superb memory.

"Selama ini aku menjadi lelaki bodoh yang membuang selama enam tahun dengan kau!"
"Apa kau kater?! Kau membuang selama enam tahun dengan aku??! Sekian lama aku korbankan (something, kambing kut). Aku...(well basically I obeyed all your demands, and this is how you repay me? KEJAM!!!)"


Something I've always noticed, they tend to repeat the lines. Cows, I can do better. Hah! Okay jangan cakap banyak.


Ps: *sings* Please let me thrrrrouuuuggghhhh!!!!
stupid handphones

I'm starting to get upset again. GAH! Such petty things. They've turned me into a monster!!! It's not fair, everybody's getting a new handphone. Usually, I wouldn't care. I've always preferred to go GAH-GAH over cameras than stupid phones. But now that my Mr. Right is slowly dying, I need somebody to replace him!!! And all the stupid phones are stupid. I don't like them. Cos they are stupid looking!!!

Never EVER talk to me about handphone models. The 6345 or the N1579 or the mini-bapak-kau-giler-bodoh-series. WHATEVER. I don't get it. I just cannot associate any image to those numbers. I HATE MATHS!

I don't care if the phone has a good camera. I mean, what's the point? I want a REAL camera. I just want a phone that will not hang on me, will not go screwy on me after 11 months, is not UGLY. I don't like the slide-slide kind of phone, I want a flippy one!


My current phone has -1 megapixel for its camera (it's that bad), no bluetooth, no MP3 or radio, can't change ringtones, same wallpaper for 2 years, badly scratched and totally lovable. I like familiarity okay!?


GEEZ. I am so annoyed now. My sisters are playing with my brother's new phone. SO ANNOYING. How many times must you change phones in a year? So bloody wasteful. Oh goat I'm so irritated. I need a phone which looks JUST LIKE MINE!!! But has all the functions. Haha!

Okay bye. whatever.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:40:00 PM

Monday, December 11, 2006

so sian

i suddenly feel pathetic. all i do is sit at this damn computer all day. but this feeling will pass soon, as all feelings do. eventually. i'm contented with my life, what's wrong with that? but i think it should feel wrong. i should be doing something, something that would make a difference. even picking up stray cats and bringing them home, i don't do anymore. it's raining and i feel restless. i used to dance in the rain and splash in the puddles and happily smell of wet socks but now, i run from it. i don't throw open my window to look at it even. i feel restless. like i do everytime it rains. like i should do something, before this opportunity passes and it's sunny again. i don't like the sun. it burns us.


growing up, i think i've lost some of my righteous ideas. i was thinking in the bus just now, that no matter what happens, abortion is never right. the decision to kill a child is made as easily as ordering a drink at starbucks. it's wrong. however, i don't know. maybe in a few years, my stand on abortion will change. i will accept it, because society has accepted it. clubbing? what's the big deal. everybody does it. it's normal, come on madah, welcome to the 21st century. and so, i nod. i hate it. i should start to be more conscious of the fact that people just keep brainwashing us. maner yang islam, maner yang kafir? what line? it's been swiped away.


i feel sad. maybe i shouldn't listen to sappy songs. maybe it's that time again. to go into msn and sneer at everyone's nicknames. i think i should list out the movies that i want to watch this school holiday. wait, holiday? right projects. call me queen procrastination, because i plan to spend this rainy evening with wentworth miller. because im pathetic like that.


i don't want to be reliable. i don't want to do the things i have to do. but i'll do them anyways. because i'm reliable. but lazy lazy lazy. everybody's all grown up. i feel. i know. i don't want to grow up. and i'm only 18. and already i'm counting the weeks, months, years. i will be one of those people who gets a mid-life crisis at 30 and will be packed and sent in a tiny fedex box to thailand where i'll have to type up a relatively easy proposal on how we can prevent the elephants from doing the tightrope. see, they're dying out, those dumbos.


boo.


there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

- angel by sarah mclachlan

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
4:18:00 PM

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Siti Payung's back! And she brought presents!!! YIPEEE!!!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:01:00 PM

Saturday, December 09, 2006

derby

MANCHESTER UNITED 3 MANCHESTER CITY 1

Leading by 9 points! Aren't you excited?! Whoppeedidoo!!!

The urge to blog is overwhelming.

Who wants to matair with a guy who wears a freaking skirt?! *slaps forehead*

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:47:00 PM

avoiding Friendster

Reasons to avoid Friendster-:

1) You get obsessed with you, you and yourself.

2) You spend 5 hours fixing up your profile and ignore your notes that needs to be studied for the Monday paper.

3) You find out things on Friendster that either annoys you, or breaks all illusions you ever had about someone.

4) People you rather not meet finds you on Friendster.

5) I cant really think now cos I have to wee-wee. Ciao.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:13:00 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

wonder

Who will terase if I changed my MSN nick to say,

"WHY the HELL are people so emo on MSN?!"

Seriously man. They can be so happy in person. But when you go online, bermacam-macam perasaan mereka luahkan.

"Your words count - I wish I can learn to let go"
"When the world fades away, shall I rise again, to be with you"
"You have to stop adding to my suffer"
"I just want to love again..."
"I want to know true happiness
"Finally someone to call my own...Luv u"


Perasantan lagik ader.

Go get a life man. You're not going to achieve anything by having fantastical nicknames. Or by blogging (*looks in the mirror, points and screams*).
Aku lagik takde kerje, making an effort to actually create an entry. Padahal, I am just as guilty as the rest of them.

I need to go listen to sappy songs and come up with a "heartwrenching" nickname now.

Ps: I am still listening to Raya songs. KAU MAT BODOH!

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:51:00 AM

selimut hari jadi *sneeze*

athletes are fat and lazy

Someone's getting married. YAY. I can hear the kompangs for the past 10 minutes. So gerek.

And my dad was watching the Asian Games and muttering to himself,

"These clowns...these clowns... *mumble mumble*"

I took a break from freaking out and joined him for a while in watching the swimmers. He quickly exclaimed,

"So fat! Lazy!"

I looked at him weird and stated that they probably are fitter than he was, to which he replied in disgust,

"They eat only. No wonder so fat. LAZY."

I'm very puzzled as to how he came to that conclusion. I kept hearing the words fat and lazy coming from him. And when one of the Sporeans came in last, he got more excited and said loudly,

"That's why. Cos she's fat. These clowns ah...Buggers...."

Doink.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
1:06:00 PM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

aging grapes

It's scary to realize that your parents are getting old. My father! My father!

While taking a drink from the fridge, I saw Tina's Secondary 3 textbook booklist. I never thought that I would see the day when Tina enters Sec 3. I remember looking at my Sec 3 textbooks and deciding that I won't keep them cos it would take too long to wait for her to turn 15. Now that time has come. Omg. I'm bloody old. I'm officially 18. And it's almost 2007. No no no no no no...


Ps: Did anyone see the Doha opening ceremony?! Brilliant! Bai called me to watch cos they actually spelt out,



Peace be upon you. And in arabic too.



Khalifa Stadium. Largest widescreen TV in the world? -shrugs-




He rode a freaking horse up the stairs to light the flames. Not only horse, a pure bred Arab gelding. Aku mati-mati ingat gelding tu like a hang glider and he swooped down and dropped the torch on the circle thing or something. Geez.


They're so powderful, great exposure for them. People were really awed by their display and their culture. So colorful. And that little Arab boy that sang the national anthem. Bai cheered, "Marhaban marhaban!" What does that mean uh? I think I know but I'm not too sure.

Dubai? Nah, DOHA!
selimut hari jadi

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