Thursday, November 15, 2007

heart of the ocean, blood of the sea

Why is Titanic such a hit when it came out? I don't know. But it's a classic lah, though I don't know what was the big hoo-haa about Kate Winslet posing naked. She's not pretty. Actually her nose is pretty big. There was this scene that I really liked where she was on the boat and it was going down and Jack had the sparks from the flare framing his background and the light from the flare was shining down on Rose's face and cows. If only she was beautiful, it would have been perfect.

Anyways, Leonardo DiCaprio. I like him, I do. Dunno why I used to not like him. Too much hype I guess.

But can anyone ever find a Jack Dawson for themselves? It just seems impossible, like their love story is so perfect, so tragic, and the return to the ship at the end and him waiting for her. I love it but it also irritates me how freaking perfect everything is. Bloody Rose. Sa sam pa lin kita!

Yes, I've been learning Tagalog. Hehe. If I don't feel too lazy, I'll post a picture of Maggi the Hornbill and me okay. Oh and tmr have left me feeling stranded and unwanted. Again! Boooo.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
9:06:00 PM

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

mcr are just acronyms

-giggles at messages on my tagboard- I'll reply to you guys later. And Rao, omg yah hor, whose no was that in my handphone that you called? HAHA. You really covered your tracks, omg and I really believed you and even now I'm still like, "Eh, that didn't really happen!" But I still want to online shop okay.


What I REALLY want to blog about was MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE CONCERT. I want to go more than ever and my sister already said she would pay for it (I think) and Tina said she would follow me but guess what. She wants to MOSH and run into the mosh pit and headbang and MAKE FRIENDS. GASPS.

I want to cry lah, she's such a teenager step wannabe hardrock cafe tak menjadi AARRGGHHH. MOSH? She wants me to MOSH?? I have no doubt that she'll be fun company but I have a feeling I'll end up feeling embarassed and stupid and she'll run off and leave me alone cos I DON'T WANT TO MOSH TO MCR LIKE OMG STOP IT SEY.

I really really really really really really want one of my Milahtants to accompany me!!! UWEK. But haiz yes money issues right? How about I pay for half of your tickets, as a birthday present? HEHE. EH but I'm serious about it okay. I'm already starting to feel ill just thinking abt going with Tina, just the two of us! She's fun but just not GM you know. ARGH. If I'm desperate enough, I'll belanje someone to go with me. HAHA!

Oh Chester. MUACKS.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
10:41:00 PM

you can't stop to breathe

Bloody basket I had important things to blog about okay and I WAS going to end it off with how I had waffles with Rao after work just now but NO! Now, I gotta do my birthday entry.

I was expecting something from the milahtants, how could I not? I was already excited, anticipating it and wondering how the hell they were gonna do it. I did imagine them turning up at my house at midnight with a cake but nah, they got school and work so that's impossible. I purposely gave Sistic Aisy my off days cos I know she's gonna do it on one of those days but I mati-mati think that they were going to do it AFTER my bday, like a weekend or something.

So just now I didn't suspect anything when Rao wanted to meet up, then drop off at Pasir Ris to meet her "seller" to get her F21 clothes!!! Cows I was so happy to get waffles and at last she revealed to me that she didn't want waffles at all in the first place but she just didn't want me to get suspicious! Cheat my feelings sey, I thought we shared a special moment there, sitting on the stairs of the MRT!

We were walking and suddenly Rao called out to Yana and I'm like all happy like, "HEY YANA!" Happy to see her lah but SHE seemed suspicious, like she wasn't happy to see us and like she wanted to get away from us as quickly as possible. So I was like all, "Eh what you doing here?? You were from Clementi?? Why didn't you meet me, we could have gone here together!" And she gave me a get-away-from-me look and said quickly, "I'm meeting my friend" and briskly walked off and I was kind of "Eh, that was weird. Maybe she's going to meet her secret boyfriend." Okay so I wanted to stalk her but Rao needed to meet her fake seller so I droppped it.

And I know I wanted to watch my Korean drama at 7 but I didn't want to just dump Rao for LEE DONG WOOK, no matter how handsome he is so I stayed with Rao. HAHA she couldn't shake me off and it didn't seem like she wanted to! But she pandai lah, she called Fas & Sya on my handphone and then deleted the evidence so that when I checked, there were no records. Smart girl.

So in the bus I was thinking about my birthday and smiling to myself and thinking about the things I'll do when I get home and suddenly Bah calls me, all urgent-like, looking for Rao cos she had something important to tell Rao about Amad?? And I'm like, "Gasps! What is it?" And she wouldn't tell me and so for the rest of the journey, I was wondering what the hell Amad got up to so THAT distracted me pretty good.

When I got home, I was expecting the door and gate to be locked cos Tina & Iza were suppose to be out. So I just grabbed the door and pushed it and hey, it opened! And I see,

1) Bright lights.

2) Somebody's butt running away from me.

3) Stunned people in Bai's room staring at me.


At first I thought it was Tina, having an illegal gathering with her friends at our house, and I was ready to storm in to yell. And then I realize that the people staring at me is Yati & Yana. And that it was Sya's butt that was trying to make a dash for it. And then Fas comes out yelling at me about how I ruined the surprise and Wadah makes an appearance and disappears into the room again and by this time, I'm laughing my head off cos I can just imagine the surprise and OMG all my friends are in my house! THEY WERE IN MY HOUSE!!! MILAHTANT INVASION! LOLLL.

God brilliant plan by the way. If they had really executed it, they would probably have made me cried. But as it, excellent effort since you did have me fooled, especially Rao!!! Cows I hope I bit everyone because words does not suffice. I know I bit Fas & Sya. GERAM MAN. I can't believe it!

And then Wadah brings out the cake and Yati swings my cushion right onto it! And I coughed over the cake (sorry) and then they bring out a whole stack of KFC goodies that they had delivered in just half an hour(and Rao was just saying how she wanted to eat KFC. COINCIDENCE??), and drinks and Sya suddenly hands to me this rectangular-shaped present from the milahtants and I'm like, "This better be good."

Scotch tape bapak aku nyer eh, jangan marah. Haha the silver tape-lampu one! And when I opened it, bloody hell! It's GREASE DVD!! SHRIEKS SHRIEKS SHRIEKS!! OMG JOHN JOHN JOHN -melts- Sya was trying to be all secretive, and wouldn't tell me where she bought it and I flipped the DVD to the back and there it was, "HMV. (plus price)".

Classic GM.

Fas screamed in horror. Sya laughed so hard she cried. And proceeded to lock me in the storeroom.

Cannot tahan man. Ader price tag!! HAHAHAHA. I don't mean to read it but I couldn't believe it! And I even know which HMV you bought it from cos you just gave yourself away lah. So you know, next time, don't step secretive!!!


I wanted to finish the Korean drama first and when Gong Chan finally came out, I was screaming for Fas and AARRGGHH!!! My Korean-fan milahtant buddy!! Haha I knew I can count on her to become hysterical! -faints-

Finally played Grease and AH JUST AWESOME POSSUM BLOSSOM! I know Nis stayed longer than she was suppose to just for Danny Zuko! And when the final song came up, we just got up and danced!!! Cows berpeluh sak! And after that we played hindustan songs and bhangra-ed like nobody's business!!! Party it up, Gengmilah-style! Maccows best birthday ever!!!!


Honestly you guys, thank you so much, I didn't want it to end! Argh I didn't want my surprise to be over! I'm annoyed I didn't fool you into thinking that you fooled me! I wanted to do a little game of cat-and-mouse! And I also half thought that you would do Fas & me together but no I guess. EEEEE I love you guys and yes I see my friends and I feel more than alright and this feeling would last me till next year. MUACKS. Syukran to -:

Yana.O (who msged me 1st)
Nis (for staying for Mrs. John Travolta (me lah of course))
Fas (who bhangra-ed her head off)
Sya (even tho I know you sengaje want to msg me lambat)
Rao (you're such a liar, I wont trust you ever again)
Wadah (who brought the cake out in perfect condition but got whacked by Yati)
Yati (for coming even though you were so tired and for getting cake on my cushion)
Yana.S (thank god you weren't really bingit with me!)
Bah (who danced with her bad back and for being the first person to wish me in person at the busstop. haha!)


My pictures are all with Fas by the way so um, I want my memory card back!! Please don't post embarrasing videos of us on YouTube okay, it's so tak senonoh. Gengmilah is so....GENGMILAH. Watching Grease is our highlight, and letting loose like that is such a rarity to be captured on film. We are the oddest girls ever and we love it.

-KISSES EVERYONE- KOMOWO!!! Jetaime! Jetaime!

Ps: I emptied my inbox especially for today okay people so I expect the smses and birthday wishes to flow. So, flow.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
12:57:00 AM

Sunday, November 11, 2007

the beat that you can't follow

Today was PUB's family day and guess who came?? Kinah, Mastan, cik Sarip & Cik Naya!!! YAY!! It was kind of exciting to see them, spice up my routine routines abit. And Cik Naya forced some KFC on me (thanks for that!) PLUS a packet of brilliantly scented Dubai-an wet wipes. Aishah, I want Dubaian wet wipes! They're so cool!! I don't think I want to use them. So sayang.

Sandy joined us on our walk past the birds of prey and god, they are always so gorgeous. And then we headed to the Hornbill area to see Maggi the Great Pied Hornbill (is that how you spell it). The cousins went off first cos Kinah had to go to work but Sandy, Ivan and me stayed back to meet Maggi after the show.



So what happened was we walked into the kitchen with Gerren to I don't know, pat Maggi I suppose. I thought Gerren was gonna hold her bill for us while we touch her but he just offered to put her on our arm. Sandy went first cos I was reluctant cos Maggi was already snapping at me.

Guess what happened when I finally took her? Well first of all, she's kind of heavy and I put her on my left arm, which wasnt as strong as my right. And Ivan was taking my picture and COWS, Maggi turned and grabbed the skin near my left cheekbone and started twisting my skin like she was going to rip it out lah!

And I didn't react cos I thought she was going to let go but she didn't and bloody Gerren didn't intervene for a while and cows, aku terperanjat lah!! Honestly, I rather let Baby bite me cos I know his strength and even if he hurts me really bad, at least he's familiar to me. Okay I'm kind of afraid of the damn hornbill, I admit!!

She started biting my ear also lah and twisting it and bloody Ivan kept telling me, "Eh wait wait, take one more picture. Eh wait no blur, one more." Cows, darah aku UP I tell you!! But I just smiled and waved boys, that's what I did.

Then finally Gerren tells me that previously Maggi escaped then a bangla caught her and dumped her in a gunny sack and that's why she don't like dark-skinned people. Oh kirakan aku nie bangla lah?? KNN!! Though I understand why she doesn't like me and I don't think I would have mind so much if she didn't decide to chew the skin so near my eye. Pick lah my chubby cheeks ke, pull off the fat there.

So yeah I was kind of bingit ngan si dua bahlol samdol jantan tu for being so annoying cos I think Sandy was horrified already and I was kind of stunned also when it happened. Piss off lah everybody. I'm NOT going to touch the hornbill with Gerren again, I swear! I'm going to wait for Sadali to do it. And damnit, forget the penguins. Though I really want to touch them. Argh, give me cats!!!

So guys, if you want to see, there's still a red mark from where Maggi gave me a kiss. And good lah they all laughed at me in the pantry. -picks up chicken leg and throws at them- KNN betul.


OMGOSH guess whose birthday it is tmr??
RYAN FREAKING GOSLING YO! HEEE. Just one day before mine, it's F-A-T-E. 12th Nov 1980.
And whose birthday is it today?
Leonardo DiCaprio!!
And 6th Nov 1981 - LEE DONG WOOK. (GASPS, F-A-T-E!!!)


Speaking of birthdays, heh, here's my birthday list that I came up with while dozing off in the train today.

What I want is-:

1) A genuine Man Utd jersey.

2) Tickets to watch a game at Old Trafford.

3) A visit to the San Diego zoo.

4) A slightly raspy voice.

5) Smooth flawless skin.

6) Perfect hair.

7) To be syukur for the things I DO have.

8) To go to the MCR concert (no scratch that. To have someone fun to GO WITH ME. Cos I might just drag Tina as a last resort but wth, just the two of us, me being the less popular? [as proven when I went out with her last Friday])

9) A whole new wardrobe. (preferably one that leads into a world called Narnia)

10) To be less snappy and short-tempered.

11) For the Yul-character to finally get the girl.

12) To feel at ease, to see the sun, to greet my friends and feel alright. Cos lately, I don't feel completely alright even when I meet them and I don't know why. Must be my inner workings that disappoint me and the people around me. I care people, I DO. I just forget sometimes and I don't want to put it in words.

13) I want an audio driver to be installed into my computer so it can make sounds again.

14) For my internet to NOT hang.

15) Maggi to like me.

16) For people to be happy with me.

17) For this list to never ever end.


Peace out.

Like a week that's only mondays
Only ice cream never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"
...I surrender happily.
stay satay

Lethem? No not Jonathan, Yati. And he has Peter Petrelli-like hair. I didn't really like Stay but I adore Ryan and he does his trademark Gosling moves so well and I am incredibly fascinated by the way he holds his cigarettes. It almost makes me want to smoke and not sleep for many days and be all like -attempts to make Gosling's frustrated face- I just can't do it! Bleargh. -rubs my face and sighs-



Other Gosling movies to watch before I complete it

1) The United States of Leland

2) The Slaughter Rule

3) The Notebook (yes I know! people know him from this movie but I've never watched it before! -slaps forehead-)


He looks really good in Murder by Numbers though, so it is a MUST watch.



This other guy who makes me smile to myself at work and at home and now. -giggles- FAS, can I recite one part of Princess Hours to you? Cos the lines are stuck in my head cos I'm obssessed. Okay enough gushing sorry BYE.
bagaikan sembilu (or what)

I was standing in my aviary, staring at the Turacos and somehow my train of thought led to how we, as in the Ramdan children, call our father "Abak". And it might be kind of funny how we can't even call him by the proper term which he wanted, which is "Abah". I'm sure he wanted that and I don't know, I think it's significant.

Anyways, how come these days, it is the children who say that they are disappointed with their parents? Have they never thought about how maybe they're the ones who are the disappointment? Do kids grow up imagining about how their parents might turn out? No right. It's usually the parents who have such dreams for their children, imagining how they might turn out as adults. And it's quite a let-down when you get something that you didn't ask for and that you can't return.

Maybe I'm thinking about this because I am on good terms with my parents now, I am not the one being attacked, interrogated and confined. But I DO see it from my parents' point of view too and it is NOT my fault that I can understand why they are so mad. Ntah lah. It's like you've already taught your cat to pee in the litter box but when they get older, they start peeing everywhere else instead. It's a minor sort of sakit hati.


Ah sometimes I feel guilty because of the way I am and I know my dad's expectations and cows, if my other siblings weren't around to create trouble, aku pon kena marah sey. Cmon man if my dad has to rely on me as his last hope, then it's already a lost case. Ah bersalah bersalah!!! Korang tak rasa bersalah ke. Bleargh. So SEMBILU. Okay bye.

*~*Excuse me While I Tend to How I Feel @
8:20:00 PM

Thursday, November 01, 2007

romantic realist

That's what they said about me. Huh. I am very pessimistic about some things and am very optimistic about other things. This happens sometimes. I am ALWAYS convinced that Man U can and will win every game, even when they are trailing behind at the 88th minute. I am always sure that I'll be happy to see my friends and that the day will turn out great if I have things planned with them.

I am certain that the night would bring something good if the day was bad. Or you will have tragedy at night if you have had a brilliant morning. It always works that way doesn't it?

My dad came up to me a few days ago, trying to convince me that "DISAPPOINTMENT IS A BIG PART OF LIFE AND YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT!"
And I was desperately trying to tell him I wasn't disappointed with anything! I'm just mad that the MM (not minister mentor but mamak misai) refused to change my off days, when all he had to do is just move it down ONE DAY. Not susah what.

Anyways, my dad gave me a looong lecture, which at some parts had me giggling and looking around wildly for my sisters. SISTERS, why am I always alone to witness the hilarious things that our father does?! I cannot imitate him well enough to tell you the story!

Oh yesterday I went to watch Lars and The Real Girl and oooh Ryan never disappoints. That is the 3rd Ryan Gosling movie that I've watched at the cinema, with the same people! OMG stop it sey. Shitte Yati, I just realize that my video store has STAY! I wanted to rent it with the Believer the other time but I didn't remember? GAH, I can watch!



I'm at school and I want to meet Fas or Nis but aku malas nak sms and I'm going off soon and ntah lah. Later later. MANU-ARSENAL THIS SAT EEEEYAAAHHH!!!

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